What keeps you for being special as a Christian? We have different reasons, example, lack of education, not much gifting, don't know any VIP and so forth.
Seriously, what is your reason?
Whatever it may be, consider this verse,
"Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were uneducated and untrained men, they marveled". Peter and John were merely fishermen, no chance of going school, not to mention graduate with a degree, yet they were special. The religious leaders were marveled by them! Something extraordinary about them.
What were their conclusion of the disciples' 'special-ness'? Here it is, "And they realized that they had been with Jesus." (Acts 4:13) Simply "they had been with Jesus."
Have you been with Jesus? No one can remain the same when "they had been with Jesus." Habitual negative thinking and emotion lose control over our lives. We have power to overcome sins and temptations. We know God and His words. Our prayer life are transformed. We have boldness to share the Gospel. We just love Jesus and people. Our tongues are transformed. It just keeps getting better.
Thus one thing to take away- just be with Jesus. He is available.