Inner Life
Devotion Saturday , 25 April 2020
1 Samuel 13 King tells of
Saul as king over Israel just over 2 years.
In this chapter as king he faces a huge challenge in the much more
organized and powerful Philistines' king and armies. Before facing them on the
battleground there is a preparation part- burnt offering to God. And Samuel
turns up late. Each day in waiting makes it more difficult for the battle
ahead. So the temptation is 'Shall I do the offering myself so that I can keep
the army with me?' He gives in to this temptation. This disobedience is judged
as "You have done foolishly. You have not kept the command of the
Lord your God ... the Lord sought a man
after his own heart ..." (vv.13-14).
How one can stand against
temptation is a reflection of his or her inner life- the inner compulsion,
conscience, conviction, compass and composure (from Ps Edmund Chan). This trial
exposes his compulsion of fear, insecurity and need to be in control (instead
of God in control). His inner conscience tells him it does not matter who does
the offering, ie, what God says does not need to be taken so seriously. The
inner conviction has much to do with his trust in God, 'Can God be
trusted?' He has never grown to trust
God. Instead his motto is 'I only trust
myself'. The inner compass is either the Word of God or the words of man, in
this case it is his own words and thoughts. His inner composure is lacking
badly in peace. Fear is the condition.
God seeks a man after His
own heart. Through Christ we see a perfect picture of the inner life. In our
reading of Luke 23:44-56 we get a glimpse of the inner life of Christ- the
inner peace in his heart, the unconditional love for people and absolute trust
in the Father.
Take time to reflect on your
inner life- compulsion, conscience, conviction, compass and composure.
Through our time of trials
and temptations what has the victories and failures reveal and teach me about
my inner life?
In the next few weeks as you
read of Saul's life, let the Holy Spirit tutors us in becoming a man/ woman
that seeks after God's own heart.
Prayer: Lord, I invite you
into my inner life to search and shape me from inside out. It is a scary thing but the cross tells me
that you love me and you can be trusted. The empty tomb tells me I can become
the person you want me to be, both inwardly and outwardly. In the precious Name
of Christ, the one who is ever present with me. Amen